Realizing that this will be my last journal for my senior year makes me really nervous about graduating and starting the next chapter in my life. I can remember when I was a freshman as if it was just yesterday. It’s crazy how the school year has gone by so quick. Lately, I’ve been thinking about what I’m going to do after I walk down the field to get my diploma and how relieved I will feel knowing I just completed this stage in life. The only thing that has me worried and stressed out is my senior exit interview which is March 17th. I’m stressing over this for two reasons, I don’t speak well in front of people and the fact that I get very nervous to the point where I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack.
Some preparations I have taken are; applying to the college I want to go to, completing the FAFSA and Cal Grant, and packing everything to move to Humboldt. Along the way of moving to Humboldt I think I’m going make a slight change of plans to help my sister take care of her kids. I still need to finish this semester strong and make sure that I’m packed and ready to leave after graduation. As for a job after high school, I will be helping my sister with her photography business as soon as I get to Humboldt. What I am mostly looking forward to is moving and going big in life. I’m excited the most about seeing my nephews and finally meeting my niece for the first time. I also can’t wait to see the looks on my families faces when I can finally say “I’ve made it”. Looking back on the year I’m grateful for not only my dad and my family, but for my friends and teachers that has help motivate me to strive for the best. Without them motivating me to do my work and to stay on pace I most likely would be barely trying to catch up in all my classes. With them by my side I’m actually finishing some assignments way before the actual due date. I’m the last child to graduate out of my siblings, I can’t wait to finally see my brothers and sisters on graduation day. Just having them come and watch me get my diploma means everything to me. The only sad part about this year is that I’m leaving all my friends, especially my best friend of 12 years.
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Winter break is now over and it’s now time prepare for the last semester of my high school years. My winter break was great. On Christmas Eve, went to my first NFL game and watched the Oakland Raider’s. The rest of the time I spent time with my family. As winter break came to an end and I went back to school, I realized I only had 2 weeks left in the first semester to make sure I was passing all my classes and ready to start the new semester.
As I look back on the first semester, there was a lot of good and bad that came out of it. Just a quick recap of the first half of all the good moments I’ve came upon such as recording the Varsity football teams flim, keeping score for the Frosh and JV volleyball team, I also tried not to procrastinate as much and lastly help plan world cup week with my friends. On the other hand, I was stressed out the last week since I was trying to make sure all my grades were correct and final. I also wanted to make sure I had finished all my work and I took all the tests that I needed to finish or retake. Barely coming to my senses, I soon realized that was the last first semester I will ever get in high school. It has just hit me, as I order my cap and gown, I can feel this year is going by so fast and that I’m about to graduate in about 3 and a half months. Before this semester ends I need to accomplish all my work and pass all my classes with at least a 3 and to pass my senior exit interview. Other things I need to do is completing the FAFSA, and start slowly packing to move to Humboldt. I am only applying to one college which is College of the Redwoods and so far I’m not sure on how that is going. If college doesn’t work out I plan to work with my sister with her photography business, since that’s basically what I want to do as my career. I would be working with her until I feel like I could take things in my own control. Now I have another thing to think about, such as helping out my sister by watching her kids in Redding. I have just received my senior exit interview date and now things are getting serious. All I need left for my website is to upload my journals and then I’m basically done. I’m nervous about my interview but I know that passing it will just be another step closer to graduating and getting out of this small town. Before I go in and present I’m going to have to practice what I’m going say and be prepared for any questions asked after the presentation. Realizing that senior year is at its midpoint nothing has really changed that much except that getting everything done at once is getting quite stressful. As for my classes I am trying to keep up with the work by not procrastinating as much but so far I’m only a little behind in Spanish, Government, and English. At the end of the semester I need to be finished with the first part of my classes and Geometry, but since there's only a couple weeks left of this semester I will be doing everything I can do finish on time.
Some difficulties I have had while doing my senior project are my journals, I know they’re probably the easiest part but the part that I have trouble with the most is figuring out what to write. While doing my senior project I have become fond of is updating my website and doing my job shadow. Senior year so far has been good for many reasons such as making more memories with my friends before we all leave for college, I finally have the electives that I wanted and the fact that it’s barely hitting me that I’m almost out of here but it has had it’s moments like the feeling that I’m not passing and just the stress I’ve put myself through to get out of this situation. The steps that I am taking to prepare me for my life after graduation is applying to a community college in Humboldt, then after I’m thinking about transferring to a University that offers a photography degree. When thinking about leaving off to college it’s a bittersweet feeling in my stomach. I plan to do anything I can do to get me where I need to be when I grow up. As I will be going to school I will be helping my sister out with her photography sessions that she does. I feel very supported by my dad with my decision on moving back to Humboldt, I know he would rather want me closer to home but he knows that I will do great in anything I put my mind to. I believe that this year will be the most memorable not just because I look at the all the memories that I’ve made in high school whether it’s good or bad, but because of the people that I’ve decided to hang out with at school and at home. School isn’t that hard it’s just getting into the work and putting a lot of effort into it because it will all pay off in the end. With that just sitting and thinking about how the past here senior year came in a blink of an eye and how my work ethics has been I’m glad I’m not procrastinating as much. Senior year already.. It seems like just yesterday that I was a Freshmen. So far getting used to the schedule, the new bell that’s so hard to hear and all these due dates is going to get a bit difficult but soon I know I’ll get the hang of it. As I’m starting the year off I’ve been pretty busy compared to the past years by helping the volleyball teams keep score for away and home games, but it’s not only volleyball that I’m helping with I am also helping the varsity football team by recording the plays for every game. After the games I go home and then have all this homework to work on, not only is it homework that I have to finish it’s taking to time to study to do well on EOT’s or quizzes.
In these weeks that I’ve been a senior I have already had many due dates as well as quizzes and so far I’m getting most of my work done on time, and passing my quizzes with well scores, although there are things that I’m already struggling through as in school work. I’m not completely on pace, I’m currently behind in one class which is geometry. Some reason why I am not on pace as of right now is because math is my weakest subject and I get distracted very easily although to be fully on pace by the end of the year I am going to be staying after school to finish geometry and making sure that I complete my other classes as well. My recent update on my project would be just updating the old information on my club and activities page, and just getting prepared to add my job shadow and other journals on to my website as well. The most interesting thing if wroten on my senior project was my about me page and my junior year journal, within those I’ve talked about what my life has been like and how I do things just how I get an understanding on subjects. Not only are those pages interesting but to some it may be confusing to others. This year I’m looking into doing so many things like being more involved than I was these past years. I’m also looking forward to senior sunrise, sunset, grad nite, prom, and so much more. My main goal or concern this year is just to focus more and pass all my classes. Many have told me I won’t have what it takes to get everything done for the due dates and some have no hope that I will be graduating which I’m going to push myself to do everything I can whether that means staying after school, staying up late, get help from students in my classes or anything that will get me to be successful. My mind is already set to prove everyone wrong and if I keep that mindset I know I will finish on time and walk at graduation. Junior year has been quite stressful compared to my freshmen and sophomore year, mainly because I'm not used to all the homework and due dates which have led me to procrastinating, and when I procrastinate it's to the max. I am used to having my facilitators explain everything as a whole class and many of us moving together as a class to get our assignments in on time just to be on pace.
Last year was very different from the beginning of this year such as the work ethic, being able to work with friends, having spare time to just hang out with friends, and in many ways the work is much harder than what people said it was going to be. Normally, my study habits are bad, but I am currently in the middle of getting my act together because if I truly want to attend college, which I plan to do so, I have to become a better student. In the previous years I have not cared about any of my work and also I didn't care about how far I got. Lately I've been getting many talks and speeches about where I want to go college, what I want to become, and it would be a great accomplishment for me since my parents didn't finish college. This year I want to accomplish much more than I have in the past; I also want to attend a university but for now, my plans after high are to attend a junior college up north in Eureka, Ca., until I get enough credits to transfer to a university. The one I've been wanting to go to is Humboldt State University because it’s a beautiful school and it’s a great learning and it's a quite studying place. I've accomplished many things over the years such as keeping up my grades and doing my very best in school. I need to finish a class and then I’ll be on full pace to graduate. I have one main struggle in school which is that I have a hard time learning faster than some people do. I am working much harder to stay on pace and not to struggle as much as I have in the past. I've learn to not fall behind the hard way because it will later catch up with me in the end. This has been the one of the toughest years I've had since recently I have lost many people in my life this year such as my friends who have been there for moral support, over the past two years, I haven’t had a mother figure in my life but that was because of her mistakes, and I have lost my Tia to cancer. In early July I found out that my cousin had leukemia and that my other cousin has the same cancer that my Tia died from. It’s been tough on me since I’m very close to my family and with all this happening it has a huge weight over my shoulders because as I am concerned about everything at once. I over think too much about anything and any assignments and it just ends up stressing me out. |
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